Why I went to Sevilla to learn Spanish
Ever since my twin sis got married last year, I have been on a journey of self-discovery. For the first time in my life, I truly understood the meaning of the quote, "I know not who I am"
I will forever remember 2016 as the year that tested me mentally and when I was the most vulnerable and emotionally unstable that I've EVER been in my life. It was the year that I experienced loss on many levels; from my finances, relationships and material posessions. I began to question my worth as a human, thus signalling the descent of my mental health and sanity. For the first time in my life I believed I had NOTHING to offer the world. But to my friends and community, nothing had changed. I was still the same positive, upbeat, smiley person they knew me to be. Only a few close friends could see past the 'happy' mask that I wore everyday. We're ALL here passing our time in jobs we either hate or enjoy, rships which either enrich our wellbeing or drain us, thriving in life or simply surviving; until the inevitable, when death comes knocking on our door. This very thought shifted my perspective. Time was of the essence.After countless emotional breakdowns and feeling DRAINED of my own energy, I was seeking to be my own lover and friend
It was time to live my best life, starting from my very next breath. Knowing that I had a CHOICE to select my thoughts and subsequently CHANGE my mindset is how the journey to self-mastery began. Long story short, I deliberately started to put myself in situations which were unfamilar and uncomfortable. It's one reason why I booked a one-way ticket to Spain to learn Spanish. To live with a family whose culture and language differ from my own. To go to school at the age of 30, learning Spanish with classmates from around the world. To be away from my friends, family and twin sister-all because I was wilting on the inside and desperately seeking a new environment to grow, rise and bloom
Because in the end all that matters is that we dared to face our demons and befriend our vulnerabilities, in order to invite the most fundamental energy of LOVE into our lives.To become vessels of LOVE and to live a meaningful life that we fully deserve to live